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So here I am for the past 3 weeks, at the south of Spain in a small city called Cartagena. I have to admit that I’m impressed by the city and the people and the way of life. Everything functions on “tomorrow” system and at first, I really liked it. A few days ago, when I was at university again, the people couldn’t agree on what papers do I need to carry with me and they were sending me all over from the Rectorado to the Secretaria. At the end, I was just laughing.

I live in an apartment with 2 guys. One of them is a local policeman and has a pet, ferret. He speaks English so we talk quite a bit. The other one works in the museum and is so called Murcia patriot. He doesn’t speak English and that’s a reason we say hello to each other and that’s quite all. Ok, I understand Spanish but the vocabulary is the other thing and I have problems forming the sentences without words. But I’m learning and few people told me that I speak quite well for just 3 weeks spent here.

The most interesting thing is that here are people from almost the whole world. In Residence Hall I met a man from Costa Rica, my roommate is from Canary Islands and the other roommate is from Murcia. One Erasmus friend is from France and he’s dating a girl from Portugal. One girl is from Romania. And so on.

The weather is a bit fuzzy (if that’s the right expression), one day it was 23 degrees Celsius and today it’s foggy and 14.

I cook for myself, I wash my clothes and iron them, I work and I clean up the flat once and a while. It’s nice here. I really like it. There are 68 days more in front of me and I have to take the best from my Erasmus exchange.

Do you know the feeling when something hurts you so much you have to throw up? When people say things, that hurt you deep inside and can also affect your live really much? I’m not talking about whoever, but about people, that are close to me. And few days ago, I’ve read a quote from Paolo Coelho:

“If you live to please other people, everybody may like you, but you are going to hate yourself.”

And this is how I feel in this moment. When I finally did something for myself, found the one that I loved deeply inside of my soul for past few years, when I was happy and smiling and then they say to me that I’m a disgrace for my family. Thank you. I feel like everything went to ashes and my world collapsed in front of my eyes. I feel so much anger and pain and disappointment and sadness and tears in my eyes. I feel like I have to throw up. I feel like screaming and yelling all over the place and tearing apart everything i can tear and breaking everything that can be broken.

Thank you for the pain you are causing me, thank you all.

Have you ever felt like you really have to scream? Like there is so much inside of you and you can put everything out just by simple scream? It’s not necessary to scream about what you think, it can be simple aaaaaaaaaaa!!!! but there is at least something. There are so many changes in such a short time. Positive changes in my life, but I feel like waving up and down and I think I’m getting “sea-sick”. I need a walk.

Edith Piaf – Non Je Ne Regrette Rien

So, for all of you who don’t know, I’m going to Cartagena, Spain in March. It’s a student exchange. I can’t wait! There is 21 days left until my departure. I’ll write a post every time when something important happens. For now, I’ve booked a hotel for the first day and I searched for some apartments, but there is nothing useful online. You probably wonder where am I going and why.

My location is in Cartagena, Spain and my receiving institution is Universidad Politecnica de Cartagena (UPCT). I’ll be staying there for 3 months, from 1.3.2010 to 1.6.2010.

Love conquers all. When you find your true love, there is no matter of time, place and other people. There grows an universe of only two people and, at the end, the family of their own. You can feel, who is the one. Maybe your brain, thoughts or even people close to you are agains it or are telling you that you’re wrong, but don’t listen! Take a risk! Like Dušan Dim says in his book Distorzija, we are all afraid. But if you don’t take a chance, you can never get the answer from the other side of the hall.

And I made the most important discovery of my career. The most important discovery of my life. It is only in mysterious equations of love but any logical reasons can be found. I’m only here tonight because of you. You are the reason that I am. You are all my reasons. Thank you.” (A Beautiful Mind, John Nash)

Can you say something like this to someone who is next to you every day? Can you feel something like that? So don’t judge, don’t fight and don’t be scared. Live for yourself. Live for the person you truly love. And if there is a little devil on your left shoulder, telling you that you are wrong, ignore it. There are no wrong paths in life.

Dare. Live. Love.

Love conquers all.

Today, I decided to watch a movie called A Beautiful Mind. I assume, most of you have already heard for it. And then I asked myself: where is the line between insanity and wisdom? I know it’s a thin line. Is it insane to dream about becoming recognized all over the world for one of your achievements? Maybe it’s wise not to dream about that, because all great inventions have already been invented. But what about progress then? Is it made only from insane people? People, who live up in the sky (inside their heads) and dream their illusions and then try to live it in their lives? Who knows. Is there even an answer on this question?

My plans for today:

• make a seminar paper,
• do a homework,
• learn some actionscript 3.0 and try to build it in my flash movies.

How much time will I need to lost my mind?

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right,

forget about the ones who don’t.

And believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance,

take it.

If it changes your life,

let it.

Nobody said it would be easy,

just that it would be worth it.

Author: M.G.

It was snowing last few days here. When I woke up today, I look through my window and there was full of snow and sun was shining. And it was almost one week since I last did something for myself (recreation, I mean). Ok, I went for a walk, but I didn’t use my iPod Nano and my Nike+, so I can’t really upload my progress here.

Today, the weather is just perfect for a walk or a bit of exercise but I forgot my Nike+ at grandparent’s house. Now what? I will go outside and use pedometer on mi iPod Nano. I need to move, I need to get some oxygen inside my lungs. I don’t want to get caught in stagnation and I feel really good when I do something for myself.

More from me when I come back. Be good!

I haven’t wrote yesterday because I was learning for the exam for today. It started to snow outside! The atmosphere was quite romantic and I couldn’t resist to take a photo. This is a view from our living room (one side of it).

In the evening I want for a walk with my cousin. Snowflakes were falling from the sky (obviously ) and I wasn’t wearing a hat. When I came home, my hair were full of snowflakes and my coat was white. It was really nice winter day.